Live For Today . . .

The title of this post is something I have been struggling with as of late.  I am feeling more lost than I have in a long time.  I am distracted, bummed out, can't make decisions easily, and am struggling with who I am.  

I am constantly looking back instead of forward.  I am always counting anniversaries.  But not the positive ones . . . the anniversaries of loss.  I am not connecting with our new pug because I am constantly thinking of and missing the one we lost. 

Friday night was the first time I had been interested in paint for a couple of weeks.  Mostly because I have not been feeling well.  So I grabbed my 5x7 journal and some fluid acrylics.  I like to smear, drip, and add some stencils.  It was quick but fun.  It was a moment of joy.  

The image below is the finished page.  I wasn't sure how I wanted to complete it.  

I started scribbling with a my wite-out pen.  After I added the circle I glanced over at my stamps.  I have one that says "live for today".  Ironically it was the only one I was drawn to.  

Quite fitting don't you think?

xo

Scribbles and Bandages . . .

As I write this post I am hoping that all of you are having a better weekend than I am.  Most of you know already about my arm cyst debacle and that I had surgery 4 weeks ago.  I had my stitches removed 2 weeks ago and yesterday I ended up at the doctors office for an emergency visit. I am so thankful that she was home for the holiday weekend.  Long story short my incision became abscessed.   So she needed to clean it out (OUCH!!)  pack it and bandage it.  Today I was able to remove the bandage and packing.  I am so exhausted tonite from complete anxiety.  I was shaking as I was removing it and was freaked out at the open hole in my arm.  I have begun 10 days of a super duper antibiotic different than the one I took 3 months ago when this BS first began.  I go back to see her Tuesday find out where we are at.  

So, now that I got that out of the way, I wanted to share this scribbled page I did for Alisa Burke's abstract class.  I found a face in this one as you can see and went back in with my markers to bring it out.  Looks pretty weird and I hesitated sharing it.  Maybe I am not crazy about this one because it feels like my state of mind lately!  lol

xo

The Girl With Scribbled Hair . . . Sunday Sketches

I grabbed a simple lined notebook the other day and wanted to try a quirky face. I am a fan of Mindy Lacefield at Tims Sally and that is what inspired this girl.  Mindy is offering an online class called "Paint Your Story".  I have been thinking about taking it. 

The only words that came to me as I finished her were "she knows".  I shared this pic with a friend and she asked me "what does she know?" I didn't have an answer.  I guess she is keeping it to herself for now!  And since I am in full on scribble mode these days I added them to her hair.  lol  

Something about being simple that is fun.  

Sharing today at Sunday Sketches

xo

Addicted To Scribbles . . . New Clayboard Art

 

"Amazing Soul" 

9x12 mixed media on clayboard 

available on Etsy  

Its hard to believe another Friday is upon us.  The weeks fly by so darn fast these days  I cannot seem to keep up.  Haven't done much painting except this new one on the other piece of clayboard I had purchased to try.  

 I did keep to a similar color palette for this piece but added in some blue. I used a combo of water color crayons mixed with gesso and also some  acrylics.  The clayboard really soaks everything up.  But it is easy to wipe away while it is still damp.  

Nothing to me is feeling complete these days without scribbles.  I don't know what it is about it but I feel I just have to add it.  Maybe it is the intuitiveness of the process that I am drawn to.  When I grab that sharpie or white out pen everything stops, my mind shuts off and sometimes I don't even know what I am writing or scribbling it happens so fast.  I am trying not to question but to just go with what feels right.  

I am sharing this today at Paint Party Friday.  

Wishing you all a lovely weekend!  

xo

Finger Painting And Scribbles

This week just about flew by.  Monday I go to have my stitches removed.  That will be a relief.  I have not been sleeping well and still not feeling like myself.  I feel kinda lost actually.  Maybe its from all the stress and anxiety I have been experiencing lately.  Who knows.  I hate feeling this way.  

Despite all that I was able to create this week and I love this piece.  I used watercolor crayons mixed with gesso on watercolor paper along with a black faber castell gelato, black sharpie and a white out pen for the scribbles.  I don't know what it is about the scribbling but it has become my favorite thing to incorporate into my abstracts.  I really am loving abstract work more than anything else I have tried along this creative journey.  And I like using my fingers rather than brushes which is what I did on this one.  I think I need to add to my crayon stash with more earthy tones.  These are really the only ones I have in my set.  I seem to stay away from most of the bright colors at times and need more of a selection.  

Tomorrow I will be attending a writing workshop.  I have been pretty down lately and not wanting to write at all so I am hoping this will help give me a bit of a jump start.  I will post about it and let you know how it goes.  

I am sharing this piece over at Paint Party Friday.

xo