Monday, September 10, 2012

Live For Today . . .


The title of this post is something I have been struggling with as of late.  I am feeling more lost than I have in a long time.  I am distracted, bummed out, can't make decisions easily, and am struggling with who I am.  

I am constantly looking back instead of forward.  I am always counting anniversaries.  But not the positive ones . . . the anniversaries of loss.  I am not connecting with our new pug because I am constantly thinking of and missing the one we lost. 

Friday night was the first time I had been interested in paint for a couple of weeks.  Mostly because I have not been feeling well.  So I grabbed my 5x7 journal and some fluid acrylics.  I like to smear, drip, and add some stencils.  It was quick but fun.  It was a moment of joy.  

The image below is the finished page.  I wasn't sure how I wanted to complete it.  


I started scribbling with a my wite-out pen.  After I added the circle I glanced over at my stamps.  I have one that says "live for today".  Ironically it was the only one I was drawn to.  

Quite fitting don't you think?

xo

3 comments:

  1. Cathy, I love your new creations. Amazing what comes out of our not-so-positive emotions, isn't it? I've been/am in my own slump, so I think I understand. Be easy with yourself. ;->

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  2. You know my feelings on this and how easy it is to remain in the past. We feel tied to it and we can be bound by it. But it isn't who we are anymore..time moves forward not backwards. Those we have loved and lost will always be with us in our hearts but they are here no longer. Those who are here deserve all of who we are and all that we have to give. And the most deserving of all is ourselves. I think the big question to ask is "what are you getting from the past, what are you benefiting from in hanging on to loss?"

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  3. Well, this page is beautiful!! And congrats for realizing how you feel & why- that is a step toward overcoming the thing(s) that may be holding you back. You will get past this, meanwhile: Take care and keep that journal close by.

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