The title of this post is something I have been struggling with as of late. I am feeling more lost than I have in a long time. I am distracted, bummed out, can't make decisions easily, and am struggling with who I am.
I am constantly looking back instead of forward. I am always counting anniversaries. But not the positive ones . . . the anniversaries of loss. I am not connecting with our new pug because I am constantly thinking of and missing the one we lost.
Friday night was the first time I had been interested in paint for a couple of weeks. Mostly because I have not been feeling well. So I grabbed my 5x7 journal and some fluid acrylics. I like to smear, drip, and add some stencils. It was quick but fun. It was a moment of joy.
The image below is the finished page. I wasn't sure how I wanted to complete it.
I started scribbling with a my wite-out pen. After I added the circle I glanced over at my stamps. I have one that says "live for today". Ironically it was the only one I was drawn to.
Quite fitting don't you think?