Sunday, September 4, 2011

She Remembers . . .

In my last post I eluded to having a rough week and this girl just about says it all. I haven't been doing any art and yesterday I was feeling really upset so I went into my studio room hoping to get my mind out of its funk and anxiety. I grabbed a new piece of watercolor paper, a watersoluble graphite pencil and just started sketching a face. It was fast and messy because frankly I am tired of trying to be perfect.

I just kept adding water to her letting it go wherever it wanted to. I used a bit of black and pink caran d'ache crayons. Then I added some stamping with a few of my favorite stamps. When I stepped back and looked at her I was overwhelmed with the emotion of it. I didn't plan to make her look sad and yet she does. If I tried to create a sad face I couldn't do it. But this was what was inside me that splashed out onto the paper. The words "she remembers" popped into my head while I was stamping. And when I looked back at her I got chills.

Although I don't wish to be sad I do wish I could create art this raw all the time. I want to create art that makes people feel something. And when I look at her I feel.

I have spent most of the week crying. I have a sick pug at home and am beside myself over it. And to make things worse tomorrow is the anniversary of my first husband's death. Even though it will be 17 years it is still hard. I really never look forward to labor day weekend.

Sorry for this bummed out post today. I do hope though you enjoy the art. :)
I will be sharing this girl for Sunday Sketches. Please stop by Sophia's blog and see all the beautiful work this week!
xo

26 comments:

  1. Fast and messy and fabulous! Fabulously expressive! art therapy! she is really great and as you say raw, writing and art are so often strong when we are stormy or grey i find.. of course you should be sad, angry, overwhelmed.. baby steps!

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  2. There is such beauty in the raw emotion of your painting - I am so glad you were able to use your art as a way of expressing all of the sadness you are feeling.

    I continue to keep you and your pug in my thoughts during this difficult weekend...

    BIG hugs
    xo
    Kristin

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  3. :-( A sick doggie and an anniversary of a loved one's death...Yeah, that'll make art come pouring outta ya! Sorry for all of the rough stuff surrounding you, but a new day is around the corner...and it's a short block to the corner. :-]

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  4. Hi, sweet Cathy! You are on my mind all the time these days, as is Bosco. Having him be so sick on top of this anniversary must be so tough!

    You are one strong woman, you know? And I'm glad you have your sweet husband around you to give you strength as well!!

    I will keep you all in my heart!! Love, Silke

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  5. My heart goes out to you... your painting is beautiful...sorry for your pain....and I'll keep my fingers crossed that your pug gets better... hope you have a better week...

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  6. lovely sad sketch...sorry for your loss

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  7. Your sadness is expressed well in this painting. Sometimes it's good to let one's emotions out on paper...
    The result is beautiful~

    // -T.W-

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  8. Your artwork is beautiful and speaks volumes to me. I'm sorry to hear you've had a rough week and the things you're having to balance on your plate. Hang in there. You're stronger inside that what your mind/heart wants to make you believe at times. Hugs :)

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  9. Art can be great therapy and truly the shot we need to help us work through things that come up in our life! Sending prayers!

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  10. Very emotional. I love what art work can release form the soul,

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  11. oh it's such a good sketch . . :'(
    i wish you strength this week and happiness too.
    tc

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  12. Hope you feel better soon and your pug. As they all said before me. Art is a great therapy so keep pouring your soul on that paper. :)

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  13. What I love about this online creative tribe is that we are here for each other through good and bad. We know that art heals and clearly this painting is what you needed to let go. It is full of emotion. Take care of yourself. We are all thinking about you.

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  14. I'm so sorry you feel so down. I think it's very therapeutic to get your emotions out on paper, because that is how you get real emotion in your art. I get tired of seeing cute happy girl paintings all the time, that this for me, is refreshing. It is real, and it does not need any words.
    I always say paint from the heart, and that's what you've done.
    Blessings to you, and I'm praying for your sweet pugalicous pup's health
    xoxo

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  15. Sending you loads of love. It was the 18th anniversary of my sons death yesterday and you are right, it doesnt get easier - I think in fact, it may get a little worse the further away their life with you gets. You know what I mean?
    And sending your sweet puggles loads of love too!

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  16. she is fabulous...you are in my thoughts today...your pug too!
    dana

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  17. Oh big hugs to you ~ Have been a widow now for 7 years and I know it is not easy ~ Glad, though, that you were able to release your emotions in creating ~ Healing energy on its way to you and your pug ~ Hugs and namaste, Carol ( Share the Creative Journey)

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  18. Sometimes sad art is just what we need. I'm sorry you are feeling so bad right now. I hope your little pug will get well soon. Hugs

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  19. Hats off to you my sweet... even with all the horrid stuff you are going thru you still produced a beautiful piece which speaks volumes. Therapy or not you have produced something great from all the hurt and crap when some of us wouldn't have.

    keeping you and Bosco in my thoughts and love to Lou too for being your rock. xx

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  20. i love seeing the beauty and emotion that you have put in your expressive art....creating can be therapeutic and the results are meant to heal...it's good to be open and express yourself - that's what blog friends are for - we are all sharing a creative journey! hugs to you!

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  21. such an emotive and sad piece - also beautiful and hypnotic and the words 'she remembers' seem so fitting.

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  22. Cathy--I'm sad for you, and I didn't know about your 1st husband. You have been giving alot of challenges in your life--they say that we're only given what we can handle--which means that you are a very strong lady--hang in there.
    I'm glad that your art can help you work through your sadness.

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  23. no need to apoligize,, sorry things aren't too happy right now, a sick pup is very distressing, I hope that all the positive energy and thought we all send speed the recovery and the aniversary of your husbands death is past now ,, hard time for sure,, please be happy. I just found you today,,the painting is lovely, I can feel her tears,

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  24. It is so good and healing that we have our art to express our feelings. Hoping you are feeling better but fully understand your feelings. xxoo

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  25. So sorry for your sadness! It's good to let it out in your art! Art is healing!

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  26. Cathy I am so sorry you are feeling so sad! The painting is full of raw emotions which touches on my own sadness. Just cry and create it helps!!!
    Thinking of you!
    Love ManonX

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