Friday, May 25, 2012

See Yourself . . .

"see yourself as you are"
mixed media on 5x7 watercolor paper
©cathy bueti


I was inspired by the colors used in the landscape I shared in my last post.  Its something about reds and blues lately that draws me in.  I usually stick with neutrals or earth tones.  Nothing too bold.  Maybe I need the bold colors to help get my angst out.  I may have overscribbled on this one but I don't care.  It is still my favorite part of the process when I work on these pieces.

The question mark in the top left appeared in the red paint all on its own as I was fingerpainting.  I brought it out more with black marker and the white out pen.  The words I wrote around the circle say "see  yourself as you are".  And at one point I do recall scribbling "who are you?"  Its really how I am feeling these days.  Not knowing who I am anymore.

I had a truly difficult day yesterday full of anxiety and tears.  It was mentally as well as physically exhausting.  My arm is not healing as well as I had hoped.  More anxiety over this issue that is now in 3 months of development.  I just want some relief, mentally that is.  I was on the phone yesterday with the doc again and she calmed me down.  I may end up seeing her again on Tuesday.  Apparently I have a deep stitch that may be working its way out when it should be dissolving.  I guess it doesn't like me.  I will try not to obsess over it this weekend but she assured me that she will be available by phone if I need her.  At least I have a really patient and nice doctor as I continue to deal with this arm issue.

Hope you have a great holiday weekend.  Here it will be quiet, hubby is working for the next 3 days. I will be on my own trying to stay calm and keep anxiety at bay.

I am sharing this piece today at Paint Party Friday.

Its always fun over there!  Come and join us.
xo
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14 comments:

  1. SusanMay 25, 2012 at 7:55 AM

    This has an interesting depth to it. Keep painting! It occupies your mind and helps keep anxiety at bay, and you are good at it!

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  2. MarjiMay 25, 2012 at 8:14 AM

    Paint, paint, paint... it soothes the soul. Your work is beautiful and it lets your inner self speak.

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  3. NettyMay 25, 2012 at 9:06 AM

    At least you are able to scribble and paint which is important for you at this time. Hope your arm gets sorted soon. Happy PPF, Annette x

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  4. Mary C. NasserMay 25, 2012 at 12:12 PM

    So sorry to hear that your arm is not healing as you hoped.
    I think it's great that you are expressing yourself through your painting process.
    Love the rhythm, lines, and movement of this painting!
    ♥♥♥
    Happy PPF!!
    Mary
    Mixed-Media Map Art

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  5. PoetessWugMay 25, 2012 at 12:39 PM

    I am so sorry you're still having some struggles with your arm. :-( I wish I could say something comforting, but the only thing I can think to say is: Try not to stress too too much about it. You know how life is...after this issue is resolved there's just another one coming around the pike! Take SOME peace in the fact that at least you know what this one is...and it's handleable!....Oh Yeah, and also YAY! I got my free gift prints and I LOVE THEM!!! ^_^ You're so good! I'm gonna blog about them tomorrow. I hope you don't mind if I share your lovely note! :-)

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  6. minnemieMay 25, 2012 at 12:45 PM

    I can identify with your question "How am I?" I ask it often:-/ I hope your arm gets well soon... and that it is only a stitch (thought that is bad enough) and not anything more!

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  7. katMay 25, 2012 at 12:45 PM

    Cathy sorry to hear about your arm...relax as much as you can, do what you love to do and enjoy! Your creations are lovely Cathy, thanks for sharing with us and I hope your arm heals soon! xx

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  8. MandyMay 25, 2012 at 9:03 PM

    OH...YOU POOR THING...THAT STITCH THING HAPPENED TO A FRIEN DOF MINE A FEW YEARS BACK...HOPEFULLY IT GETS BETTER SOON...PAIN CAN CERTAINLY DO YOUR HEAD IN CAN'T IT....YOUR PAINTING IS WONDERFUL...IT REMINDS ME A BIT OF A PIECE I HAVE SEEN AT IKEA...I DON'T THINK ITS OVERSCRIBED, THATS WHAT MAKES IT WONDERFU I THINK...XXX

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  9. Tracey FKMay 25, 2012 at 11:22 PM

    you have had a time of it lately and it is hard to not let anxiety take hold when things are ongoing... I hope that by the time this gets to you you are having a better day and my thoughts are with you...xx

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  10. GigglesMay 26, 2012 at 3:29 AM

    Nice. Wishing you light,love and better days ahead!

    Hugs Giggles

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  11. Theresa PlasMay 26, 2012 at 7:17 AM

    Inspiring piece Cathy. Hope it eases your anxiety. Wishing you a better day.

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  12. Anne MandaMay 26, 2012 at 11:16 AM

    Beautiful piece, love your colors! Sorry to hear you are not feeling well, hope it gets better soon!

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  13. kristin maynesMay 27, 2012 at 12:06 AM

    It's a beautiful piece! I'm sorry things have been hard for you. I can imagine it's mentally draining. I will keep you in my prayers. I hope you get some relief soon. Happy PPF!

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  14. JKWMay 31, 2012 at 1:32 PM

    Your art is totally interesting. I hate that it is b/c you are in turmoil though. Relax and let the darn thing work itself out. . . that's the way to do it (easy to say, hard to do, but it will work). Many Blessings, Janet PPF

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