|"see yourself as you are"|
mixed media on 5x7 watercolor paper
I was inspired by the colors used in the landscape I shared in my last post. Its something about reds and blues lately that draws me in. I usually stick with neutrals or earth tones. Nothing too bold. Maybe I need the bold colors to help get my angst out. I may have overscribbled on this one but I don't care. It is still my favorite part of the process when I work on these pieces.
The question mark in the top left appeared in the red paint all on its own as I was fingerpainting. I brought it out more with black marker and the white out pen. The words I wrote around the circle say "see yourself as you are". And at one point I do recall scribbling "who are you?" Its really how I am feeling these days. Not knowing who I am anymore.
I had a truly difficult day yesterday full of anxiety and tears. It was mentally as well as physically exhausting. My arm is not healing as well as I had hoped. More anxiety over this issue that is now in 3 months of development. I just want some relief, mentally that is. I was on the phone yesterday with the doc again and she calmed me down. I may end up seeing her again on Tuesday. Apparently I have a deep stitch that may be working its way out when it should be dissolving. I guess it doesn't like me. I will try not to obsess over it this weekend but she assured me that she will be available by phone if I need her. At least I have a really patient and nice doctor as I continue to deal with this arm issue.
Hope you have a great holiday weekend. Here it will be quiet, hubby is working for the next 3 days. I will be on my own trying to stay calm and keep anxiety at bay.
I am sharing this piece today at Paint Party Friday.
Its always fun over there! Come and join us.