Wordless Wednesday . . . Streets of NYC

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Sunday Sketches

My husband doesn't like when my girl sketches have tears.  He always asks "why is she crying?"  as if it upsets him.  For me it is just what comes out as I am drawing.  I do like to shade alot around the eyes and then sometimes I feel like it is not complete without them.  I have been emotional lately with all that is going on so maybe some of that is coming out.

"just let go"  came to me as I was sketching and for me it is so what I need to do these days.  It seems to be the hardest for me.  I am really struggling with that right now.  

She is different that my typical face but she's cute and I like her.  

Sharing her over at Sunday Sketches.  

Recovery And A New Abstract

"graffiti love"
mixed media on 7x9 watercolor paper

I have been a bit MIA here this week mostly due to my laying low and resting from my procedure on Monday.  I like to call it a "procedure"  because to me that sounds less scary than "surgery".  Needless to say I was a wreck on Monday and all last weekend for that matter.  It was done in the doctors office in a room with those bright white lights I had come to know so well years ago.  The doctor was wonderful and I was a mess.  I was shaking, twitching, and holding back tears during the whole procedure.  I had forgotten how awful it is to hear all the sound effects when you are awake during surgery.  


The only downside of it was that she could not get all of the cyst out which means it may grow back. I am trying not to focus on that possibility and just think good thoughts as I wait for biopsy results.  She is sure it is only a cyst and there is nothing to worry about however when you are a cancer survivor a simple cold is never just a cold anymore.  


I have stitches in my arm for 2 weeks and luckily have only had minimal pain.  It is my dominant arm so I am trying to not overuse or lift anything heavy.  Its weird because through all of this I feel so "out of my body"  I am acting like I have never had any surgery before.  I think it is the fear that is pulling me out of myself and lately I have been having trouble finding my way back in.  


I created this new piece prior to the surgery.  I haven't been very creative this week.  Just been resting.  I used crimson and payne's gray as I love those 2 colors together and I added details with a black sharpie and a new white out pen.  Loving the white out pen!  Of course as I have said here before, the scribbling is my favorite part these days.  Maybe because my mind is so darn cluttered!  


I am also trying to put my photography together for an upcoming show.  I will be participating in the annual Patient Art Exhibit at Memorial Sloan-Kettering again this year.  I am trying to decide on 6 pieces and I better get my act together because the deadline to submit my framed work for the show is looming!  I don't want to miss it!  I really enjoyed having my work displayed last year.  It is a wonderful event.  


I am sharing this piece today at Paint Party Friday.  Thanks to all who posted well wishes last week!   I appreciate it so much!!
xo

Wordless Wednesday

Abstract Play And A Little Surgery . . .

I have been trying to get back to some art.  It has been hard for me to be creative lately as my mind has been cluttered with an upcoming procedure.  On Monday I will be having a cyst excision on my right upper arm.  I am absolutely terrified.  To some this may seem like nothing but to a cancer survivor something as simple as a cold becomes a huge deal.  When your body is not well in any way shape or form even a little ache or pain can be scary.  According to the doctor this is s simple procedure and it will be done in her office.  I will have stitches for 10 days and limitations with my movement which will be challenging since I am right handed.  Never mind that it will of course be biopsied and despite the fact that the doctor is sure it is nothing my mind cannot help but be freaked out.  

Yesterday I was able to get messy with paint inspired by lessons from Alisa Burke's "Art of Abstraction" online class.  I am really loving it so far.  As you can see I scribbled over most of this piece and I loved it!  It is a good way to get out angst!  I have another one in progress that I will share soon that is in a crimson and payne's gray palette.  

I am sharing this over at Paint Party Friday.  

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Wishing you a lovely weekend.  I am going to try and keep my mind occupied on something other than cysts and surgery.  Not sure how successful I will be though.  :/

Wordless Wednesday . . .

Can I Just Scribble My Way Out of It ??

I started yet another new class. Big surprise I know! Anyway, I am a big fan of Alisa Burke so when she recently announced her new class was about abstract art I couldn't resist. I did this piece in my 5x7 sketchbook using a black pen and sharpie marker.

I have to say I really enjoyed scribbling and scratching on the paper. It feels good. I was not trying to be perfect or trying to create much of anything. I was curious to how it would turn out. I feel like scribbles represent the state of my mind lately.

If you have been following my blog than you know I have not been feeling up to snuff and just not been myself. Today I started to realize that the loss of my dog back in September has affected me so much more than I care to admit. Actually I am afraid to admit how much because I don't think I can handle it. I feel lost, sad, frustrated, and seem to cry at the drop of a hat. Yesterday I was out in the backyard and looked out to the place where Bosco and I would play and I broke down. Never even saw it coming. Hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like I could see him running around . . . I am crying now just typing this.

I have not been creating much lately. I feel like I have lost my muse. I am glad I was able to take pen to paper today and get some angst out. Sometimes I wish it were that simple . . . I wish I could just scribble my way back to happy . . .

Sharing today over at Sunday Sketches.