Scribbles and Bandages . . .

As I write this post I am hoping that all of you are having a better weekend than I am.  Most of you know already about my arm cyst debacle and that I had surgery 4 weeks ago.  I had my stitches removed 2 weeks ago and yesterday I ended up at the doctors office for an emergency visit. I am so thankful that she was home for the holiday weekend.  Long story short my incision became abscessed.   So she needed to clean it out (OUCH!!)  pack it and bandage it.  Today I was able to remove the bandage and packing.  I am so exhausted tonite from complete anxiety.  I was shaking as I was removing it and was freaked out at the open hole in my arm.  I have begun 10 days of a super duper antibiotic different than the one I took 3 months ago when this BS first began.  I go back to see her Tuesday find out where we are at.  

So, now that I got that out of the way, I wanted to share this scribbled page I did for Alisa Burke's abstract class.  I found a face in this one as you can see and went back in with my markers to bring it out.  Looks pretty weird and I hesitated sharing it.  Maybe I am not crazy about this one because it feels like my state of mind lately!  lol

xo

Finger Painting And Scribbles

This week just about flew by.  Monday I go to have my stitches removed.  That will be a relief.  I have not been sleeping well and still not feeling like myself.  I feel kinda lost actually.  Maybe its from all the stress and anxiety I have been experiencing lately.  Who knows.  I hate feeling this way.  

Despite all that I was able to create this week and I love this piece.  I used watercolor crayons mixed with gesso on watercolor paper along with a black faber castell gelato, black sharpie and a white out pen for the scribbles.  I don't know what it is about the scribbling but it has become my favorite thing to incorporate into my abstracts.  I really am loving abstract work more than anything else I have tried along this creative journey.  And I like using my fingers rather than brushes which is what I did on this one.  I think I need to add to my crayon stash with more earthy tones.  These are really the only ones I have in my set.  I seem to stay away from most of the bright colors at times and need more of a selection.  

Tomorrow I will be attending a writing workshop.  I have been pretty down lately and not wanting to write at all so I am hoping this will help give me a bit of a jump start.  I will post about it and let you know how it goes.  

I am sharing this piece over at Paint Party Friday.

xo

Can I Just Scribble My Way Out of It ??

I started yet another new class. Big surprise I know! Anyway, I am a big fan of Alisa Burke so when she recently announced her new class was about abstract art I couldn't resist. I did this piece in my 5x7 sketchbook using a black pen and sharpie marker.

I have to say I really enjoyed scribbling and scratching on the paper. It feels good. I was not trying to be perfect or trying to create much of anything. I was curious to how it would turn out. I feel like scribbles represent the state of my mind lately.

If you have been following my blog than you know I have not been feeling up to snuff and just not been myself. Today I started to realize that the loss of my dog back in September has affected me so much more than I care to admit. Actually I am afraid to admit how much because I don't think I can handle it. I feel lost, sad, frustrated, and seem to cry at the drop of a hat. Yesterday I was out in the backyard and looked out to the place where Bosco and I would play and I broke down. Never even saw it coming. Hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like I could see him running around . . . I am crying now just typing this.

I have not been creating much lately. I feel like I have lost my muse. I am glad I was able to take pen to paper today and get some angst out. Sometimes I wish it were that simple . . . I wish I could just scribble my way back to happy . . .

Sharing today over at Sunday Sketches.