In my last post I eluded to having a rough week and this girl just about says it all. I haven't been doing any art and yesterday I was feeling really upset so I went into my studio room hoping to get my mind out of its funk and anxiety. I grabbed a new piece of watercolor paper, a watersoluble graphite pencil and just started sketching a face. It was fast and messy because frankly I am tired of trying to be perfect.
I just kept adding water to her letting it go wherever it wanted to. I used a bit of black and pink caran d'ache crayons. Then I added some stamping with a few of my favorite stamps. When I stepped back and looked at her I was overwhelmed with the emotion of it. I didn't plan to make her look sad and yet she does. If I tried to create a sad face I couldn't do it. But this was what was inside me that splashed out onto the paper. The words "she remembers" popped into my head while I was stamping. And when I looked back at her I got chills.
Although I don't wish to be sad I do wish I could create art this raw all the time. I want to create art that makes people feel something. And when I look at her I feel.
I have spent most of the week crying. I have a sick pug at home and am beside myself over it. And to make things worse tomorrow is the anniversary of my first husband's death. Even though it will be 17 years it is still hard. I really never look forward to labor day weekend.
Sorry for this bummed out post today. I do hope though you enjoy the art. :)
I will be sharing this girl for Sunday Sketches. Please stop by Sophia's blog and see all the beautiful work this week!
xo
